one day we will look back at ourselves and say that we could have done away with the emotional self-centered tantrums and slightly narcissistic outbursts.

until that day.

Dear friend, thanks for everything. You've taught me that there's more than meets the eye. I hope you find what you were looking for. Sorry I suck as your friend.

what do you care most about?

so many things happened today. well, not many, but two major things, and since my days normally pass without major happenings like a Macy's Thanksgiving parade or a Citrawarna float (ongoing inside joke with myself), two is a lot. I want to tell my friends all about it but since i don't be seeing them very often, i always tell my family first :) and God. He knows what's happening, and i'm so very glad i get to share it with Him!*

so many things to do but here i am blogging! only ten minutes, i promise.

reza salleh + liyana fizi at empire this friday night. D, you want to go anot?



*i've been thinking about how people (myself included) think about God's gender. is God a male entity or a female entity? then it got me thinking that God can't be male, because females are so complex, and our bodily functions differ vastly from that of males, and since only females understand each other fully, God must have some sort of femininity in Him. then i thought i can't possibly generalize everything. just because we humans live with a boundary called "gender" (and other such subsequent boundaries as "occupation", "age", "education", "income", "demographic" etc) doesn't mean God is subject to said boundaries. amen? think of it this way: God has to be both male and female to be able to make males and females so unique and detailed as they are.

besides, the pressing issue here is NOT what gender you think God is. it's what you think of God, and what you make of Him in your life.

for public buses

I took the bus back today.

I never take public buses for the various reasons that it is not safe, not as hygienic as KTM, filled with men and it is not safe.

My usual commute time of two hours (by KTM) was cut short to a jaw-dropping 30 minutes. I was so happy. You don't know the jubilation I felt as the bus drove past the Bukit Raja toll. I praised God silently. The ride was shocking. The time spent plowing through the roads of KL, I would've been in the KTM going through the 15+ stations, stopping at each to let passengers off.

I've never been a fan of public buses, but after today, they're just what I need.
*cue silly jingle and cheesy smile*

haven't been replying to emails and messages. sorry

knick knacks at the market

This morning's agenda:
pasar pagi with mother
breakfast at kopitiam
stay at home

For the first time in almost a month (!), I have the liberty to sit and do nothing, and not think about the next thing to do. Well, not all day long. I still had to prepare the sharing for this Sunday and dry the laundry. And do some calculations. And I managed to send off some emails too, finally!

I tell you...I am made to be a housewife.

Half the day is gone. What next?

forgive!

"no water, no lights, no problem!"

You know, some people say I'm scary sometimes. But I think everyone is scary to someone at one point or another. One person has scared me this few weeks. I don't know if they know it. Most likely not.

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"What is good is that I'm in a much more positive place mentally, and not constantly beating myself up for failing to be a woman by my apparent inability to look like one. And that's a fine place to start."
You said it, sista!

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Deuteronomy 11

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blog title: what i said to myself about the outhouse toilet at the mission trip

Politician. Stand up comedian. Dancer. Boutique owner. Writer. Stewardess. Director. Youth worker. Stay at home mum. Luxury retailer.

What do you want to be when you grow up? Comments, even if you're already grown up :)

Notes from a smartphone

Today was a day of many firsts and many lessons.
My youth pastor, brother Philip, let me drive the (manual!) church van from rawang to Klang, with Bryan and yoke pei and Ezekiel inside. "that's a true youth pastor there :)" replied Bawanie on FB. couldn't agree more.

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It's fathers day tomorrow. If you have a dad, buy him a cake and celebrate.

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fruit tarts are yummy

if you are doing God's work, there will always be opposition to what you do. if you're speaking the truth about God, there will always be persecution and mockery to what you do.

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people change. don't hold what one person said in the past against him. (unless it's a promise)
am i talking about you? am i talking about me?
siapa makan cili padi, dia yang rasa pedas.

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i am so excited for two dear sisters in Christ of mine, whom i spoke with briefly last week. both of them are facing that part of their life where everything is on the turning point - the tipping point, if you will - and i share in their excitement for what God has in store for them.

God will test you before he can trust you. In whatever you want to do for God, there will be a test that you must pass first. and he only gives these tests to those whom he dearly loves, and those whom he gives the grace to succeed. i hope you are able to grasp what i'm saying and see beyond the present, into the things unseen. just trust God. amen!

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el elyon

pic by Sher Wyn

One of the best nights of 2011. I am so very thankful for everything and everyone. God blew my mind, again.

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Lately, the words that Senior Pastor said during last year's Watchnight Service has been ringing true and clear in my mind. "Everything that can be shaken, will be shaken, so that the strong and true foundation will remain - Jesus Christ."


Huuuuhhh. I like that part about Jesus remaining as the true and strong foundation, but I'm not a fan of the shaking part. The pre-shaking part is also too edgy for me.

Hello. Yesterday I did my very first shadow photography. Basically, I tag behind the photographer and get the names of the people photographed for captioning purposes. It is more fun than it sounds.

Thankfully none of the celebrities threw a hissy fit when I asked them for their names-they were all obliging and very polite! I didn't know half of them. I'm pretty sure I met Tinie the supermodel but I don't know where I've seen her from. I blame the deluge of online/offline modelling contests :p

There wasn't any "celebrity" I wanted to talk to in particular, but I recognized Dorian Gray in the crowd, and i chatted with him. Woo hoo!
Trains here. Gotta go!